“Forgiveness is not an occasional act, it is a constant attitude.” – Martin Luther King Jr.
We encounter so much in our lives and each thing is significant. Each person you meet, each job you have, each situation has a specific meaning and is happening to you for a reason. Sometimes, we feel so lost in a cloud of confusion and emotional hurt and it’s hard to see the way out. But you see, every time you encounter fog on your road, you know that it will end. You may grip your steering wheel as it may get really hard to see, but you know that before long, you’ll come out of it. The same goes for life.
The comparison between a physical road and our lives is probably one of my favorites because so much can change. You can see different things, go to new places, encounter road blocks, beautiful sights and new friends. I know for a fact, that I am coming out of the fog and can see the road again and it’s such a freeing, beautiful feeling. It’s a new place with new people and new opportunities. One thing I have learned very intimately is that Forgiveness is the key to navigating your way through life.
When you feel anger towards someone or something, it is not your True Self. Your True Self is this wonderful, magnificent Light that is endless Love. The Being within this shell is forgiving and wise. The more you can connect with this Light, the happier you will be.
This spiritual journey has been a crazy one at that for me. Something I struggled with for a long time was things I said or did that caused an uncomfortable occurrence in my life. I would be angry at myself, feel sorry for myself and it even spread to being angry at others. The victim role was something I was content playing up until recently. You are the one that manifests what happens in your life; plain and simple. If you are always thinking bad thoughts, saying nasty comments or doing bad things , then the place you will end up being will not be as pleasant as it could be. Although, if you think good thoughts, say positive comments and do good things, you will end up in a blissful place.
I have very recently came to the conclusion that I am in my current situation because of myself. I procrastinated, I allowed my ego to control me and I let something very important slip away. At first, I was so angry at myself that it hurt. “If I would have just done this, that or said this or didn’t say that.”
But honestly, I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and I know this situation had to occur for me. I know that I needed to learn many things about myself and this was definitely one of them. I needed to learn that Forgiveness is key.
I went through an incredibly intense meditation the other night and I felt a monumental shift within myself. I awoke from my silent journey with clarity and a new understanding. I made mistakes, I chose unfavorable things, sure. But it all led me to this moment exactly and that is huge. I have another chance to step forward in my Light and to lead a life full of Love and Forgiveness. So I thought of everything I had done that had angered me, and let it go. I wadded up this bundle and sent it away with Love and forgave myself truly. I never really knew what it felt like to do that, and when I encountered the absolute bliss within my heart, I cried. I cried for a couple of hours but it wasn’t tears of sadness, but relief.
My experience that night is something I will never forget because of how revolutionary it was for me and my personal growth. That night, I knew I’d be okay. I knew that I would live my life correctly and by correctly, I mean being fully present and choosing Love over fear in every moment. Life can sometimes make this difficult, but the more you practice it, the easier it becomes. And I made the decision that I want to be happy. I want to love myself and my life genuinely. I am a woman of this earth, a soul of this universe and I choose to Forgive. All else will fall into place as I walk my path in this positive vibration.
Here I am now, reminiscing my life and feeling so much admiration for everything that has happened and everything I have learned. I am excited to continue learning and to build a life that is full of Love. I may do this on my own or stumble into another soul on the way. I won’t concern myself too much with that because I know that everything happens for a reason, even when people leave your life and when they come into it.