and i kissed him.
is it his eyes? or the way he watches me?
is it the reason my heart’s beating fast, and why i’m staring at my feet?
i can hear the beating of that beautifully delicate thing in my chest
and with the way i want to kiss him, i fear for just a moment that he will be like the rest
but what if he isn’t?
what if he is everything i could ever ask for?
if he is the spark that ignites me to my core?
could he be my hero and my safe place?
someone i can run to when i’m terrified of the demons i’m trying my hardest to face?
would he hold me and let his fingers wander through my hair?
or plant soft kisses all over my body and is not scared
to rip himself open for me so i can see his magic
i want to be under his spell, so lost in love some say it’s tragic
anxiety wells up inside me
it’s running through my veins and i wonder if he can feel it beside me
this night has been nothing short of perfection
our laughs, our snuggles sitting here in the sand, going in this direction
i touch his arm, rest my head on his shoulder and look out
i watch the darkness consume the ocean, and forget what i was even worried about
this feels so right, so effortless to touch his skin
my soul feeling so at home while holding onto him
isn’t this just amazing?
toes digging into the sand, feeling the wind and star gazing?
just him and i, talking about life and the deeper things
feeling so much joy being able to talk about any and everything
i finally gather the courage to look up and find his eyes
he smiles slightly under the moon and then i suddenly realize
he could be everything
so i leaned in and i kissed him.
• xoxo •