I’ve always seen myself as a mentally strong person but in recent times, I’ve been struggling to keep positive. I know a lot of us are feeling this way right now because we are surrounded by people screaming their beliefs and opinions at each other as well as facing the uncertainty of our futures. I normally don’t get hit with anxiety and depression too often but when I do, it’s always about situations I cannot control. It’s never normally about me but rather about others and the overall state of the world.
The last two months, I will be doing fine and then out of nowhere I’ll get hit with days of crippling sadness. I barely want to eat, talk or even get out of bed. I worry, cry and feel sick. And this happens off and on and I feel like I can barely control the pain.
Tyler has been so patient and good to me. He has always cared for me in the most kind and loving of ways and I’m eternally grateful for his role in my life. Having a partner to support and hold you on the hard days can help keep you afloat.
One night as I was laying on the couch, I found myself scrolling through Facebook and it suddenly dawned on me. All of the chaos and negativity on this platform is one of the reasons I’ve been finding myself in the dark.
I made the decision to step back from Facebook (delete it from my phone) and ONLY use it for good things. I will no longer just mindlessly scroll through and get angry or upset over something I saw. Instead, I will use it as an extension of my creativity like I do with this blog. I may still post photos of fun adventures in my albums because that’s something I do cherish. But for the most part, I’m closing it off. I will keep Messenger on my phone because I have several group chats with my best friends and I definitely don’t want to be missing out on the fun conversations!
As odd as it sounds, just making the conscious decision of unplugging from it has already helped me so much. I feel like I’m free to just be and experience life. I will now be using this blog as well as Instagram and occasionally Youtube, to pour my creative energy into. On here, I have FULL control of what I am subjected to whereas on Facebook, I have loads of people who are trapped in a toxic frame of mind. I don’t want any part of that anymore. I want to choose to see things that inspire me and get me excited about the new world that we are creating together.
There’s something I’ve noticed…and it’s when I’m having a bad day, I feel as though I am just crumbling and cannot breathe in between sobs. BUT, when I can align myself and find that peaceful state of mind, something is different. I feel so much power and love radiating through me. More than ever before.
In those moments of connection, I am more powerful than I ever have been.
Deep down, I know that we’re in a time of marvelous transition. And I’m confident that after the storm passes, we’ll come to a beautiful new vision. And that will include so much love and acceptance of one another, thicker skin and higher intelligence. Something that has worried me is that I sometimes feel we are evolving so quickly with technology, but not evolving ourselves. And the fact is, that will seal our fate as a species.
Now more than ever, it’s crucial to come together with love instead of anger or fear. We need to decide on a better existence for future generations.
Because the old ways are no longer working. We must evolve forward instead of falling back.
I genuinely hope to inspire others to delete Facebook from their phones and to spend more time with their loved ones, creating or enjoying hobbies, exploring nature and connecting with ourselves again. Pick up a book and read. Listen to a podcast while you cook healthy food that will nourish your body.
Connecting with yourself is so special. Practicing mindfulness, intuitive eating, keeping a daily gratitude journal, meditating and walking in nature are all wonderful things to keep you feeling your absolute best.
There’s honestly no way to describe the bliss and zen of being completely aligned with yourself physically, spiritually and mentally.
I’m hoping that together, we can rise up and make this world a better place. It all stars with us. So step away from the angry comments on Facebook and step into a much more peaceful existence. You can ALWAYS keep a free blog on WordPress if you really want to post things. At least then, you’ll have control of what you see and other people can follow along. It is a much more filtered system and I am loving it.
Facebook has become poisonous. And we have the power to cure ourselves.